i'm in melbourne
studying cinema studies at RMIT
it's all crazy
i can't comprehend
but it's been the best ever

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1) Even though you think it could never happen to me. It did and it can't be taken back.

2) Taking photos, drawing and journal writing are my ways of remembering the good bits and not recognizing and thus forgetting the bad bits.

3) How to play guitar.

4) How to fall into literature all over again.

5) That I am 19 and people do not forgive my childish acts anymore.

6) I can want him and want him but if he doesn't want me. I can't have him.

7) How to draw. Properly.

8) Some people need your help. Even though they don't want it.

9) That by transitioning into an adult I have to reinvent my relationship with my parents. Or else it will continue to be unhealthy.

10) I used to think friends come and go. I now know I am the one that comes and goes. They have been there all along.

Some of you might know. I am back in South Korea. My travels ended less than a month ago and I am back to my normal routine. Teaching and...well...just teaching actually. I do need the money and am desperately trying to find more work. Hopefully something will turn up soon.

Meanwhile; my mind is failing on me now. I feel like someone put my life on pause and are going to fast forward by 2009. Everything in between is just not important. Some things have changed for me absolutely.

I am now a full-fledged vegetarian aka I don't eat anything that once had a face.
I feel like I am distancing from my sister while at the same time moving closer. It's a strange thing.
I now listen to German music...as well as Korean and still some Japanese...and French.
Photography is going slow and I feel ditanced from my friends recently. Apparently relationships change a lot once you leave people for three months. Daisy in Russia, Stephanie is Australia, Sophie in Japan and a few others are the only real friends I feel like I have been able to hold on to. I wonder about this new relationship and whether or not it will hold.

On the 3rd of October I will be 19 years old. My last chance to be a teenager and then it's all over. 18 was nice...now I feel a little old. Running out of time.

On the 3rd of October I have to send my test application to Melbourne University to complete the second round of applying for a Film and Television course. This is a huge step for me. If this does work and I do get accepted after the interview and all three tests then I will be moving to Melbourne, Australia in Febuary 2009. My sister and family will stay in Korea and I will be living on my own for the first time. I need this and I need to get on with my University studies and finally settle for at least a couple years.

Now my head is elsewhere. I have so much to do and someone is distrating me. It's rather annoying but I wouldn't want them to leave. So tell me about you.

xoxomelissa

Tim Walker Exhibition Photos: [link]

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I had the most amazing time yesterday.
I am staying in London City at the moment with my Aunt and she has been so nice and has been taking me to photography exhibitions and everything.

So we went to the Tim Walker Exhibition at The Design Museum in London and it was so inspiring. They had all of his photos and even the props he used like the huge Camera and the Air Balloon dress. they had films of him shooting and tables with all of his Polaroids and notes and sketches.
He is really amazing and I have so many ideas now.

BTW:
I took photos of the exhibition so I will upload those soon on my myspace or scraps of something.
Watch out for those soon!!!

Anyway, I also went to an exhibition for the designers Victor & Rolf at the Barbican Gallery.
They have got some awesome clothing. They played the catwalk on the walls and the dresses and outfits were of life size dolls as well as little 30cm dolls in a huge dolls house. That was really awesome.

I am now leaving to Frankfurt at the end of this month so I have more time in London and leaving for home through the middle of August. To be honest even I didn't think I'd be on this trip for as long as two and a half months. But that's how it's played out. I am so grateful though.

PS:
Will someone note me? I want to ask you something.
I need to ask someone and I don't know who to ask.

xoxo melissa

London is so amazing.
Truly. I think I could compare London and New York...although NYC was still a little more amazing.

But anyway. I visit my myspace and veiw albums to see pictures!!! [link]

But the thing I am excited about right now is a new camera!!!
It's an old vintage Soho Myna folding camera that takes 120 film.
Amazing...I got it for 10 pounds at a vintage store...these shops are amazing!!!

If anyone is in London and wants to do a shoot let me know!!!
I so feel like clicking. Anyway...I have to get that thing to work. I already have film in it but let's just hope there are no holes anywhere lol ^_^

Wow I love staying here though. We're all vegetarians which is great...makes me happy that there are no dead animals in the house. And there's the children's parade tomorrow and I'm going shopping at more vintage shops...hehehe...must search for bargains.

Meanwhile. I have still got work to do and I have to apply for University. But where to apply to? My parents think I should apply to Yonsei Umniversity...but the problem with that is I won't have much choice in courses and I'll be stuck in the minority again~ I am so dying to be somewhere where I can build a foundation; Staying in South Korea is surely only another stop-over and I'll be somewhere else in another year or two. I am dying to go to University properly too...not as an exchange and not as the foreigner.

Talk to me. Where are you? What are you doing?

xoxo melissa